[	mood	|	Good Mood	]
[	music	|	Santa Monica- Theroy Of A Deadman	]

Hey = ) , mhmm well i've been back from ohio for awhile .. lol sorry i didnt write i've been soo busy.. i jsut got back from sauble beach .. it was aswm .. but badddd sunburn .. ouch hehe .. i might be getting a job at timmy's : D i hope i get it if not then .. ahhhhhh .. what else wow another couple on campus .. Paigee and B-Rad.. <3 haha soo cute .. mhmm there's alot of couples out there right now .. mhmmm Abby Kyle♥ .. Spencer Amanda♥ .. OOHHH YEAHHH Me and Damien ♥lol i forgot to say  llol .. im soo happy .. you guys don't even know .. haha well .. that's all im really going to say.. i just woke up :P lol ..

Brit-[a]-knee <3 ox'

[	mood	|	confused	]
[	music	|	Low- Kelly Clarkson	]

Mhmm hey .. haha well punk-a-palooza was GREAT... daysfade your aswm [r.i.p] and R.W.A.V your fuking amazing.. wow i almost got hit in the head with a microphone hahaa .. such hot guys in those bands Oh.La.La.. mhmm what else happened omg Paul your so funny.. haha most embarassing moment in your car :S ahhh Christie LMFAO... there was couples EVERYWHERE at that fucking punkapalooza .. i felt so lonley :) lol.. kryss and ryan, garry and chrisite.. that's who i hung out with the whole night and i was a loner..omg today i watched Dawn Of The Dead at Ian's thats a scary movie man!! fucking fat ass woman and killer zombie baby .. hahhaha effed up! mhmm im leaving tomarrow YEA i gotta get away man !! .. it's not even funny everything's so messed up right now i just want to cry all the time.. :( .. you dont even know... anyways im trying to pack and wrtie this entry at the same time..hhaa it's kinda hard.. but easy at the same time if that even makes any sense mhmm .. well that's all i really have to say.. for now.. i'll write when i  get back form Ohio ..

--- Quotes ---

So lets play romeo & juliet & fall in love just to die

drama...they say they hate it its funny because their the ones who create it.

my head is saying [[ w.h.o c.a.r.e.s a.b.o.u.t h.i.m ? ]] and my heart is screaming i do.

he's her ..d..r..u..g.. and she's addicted

& you havent realized that im crazy about __ you <3

all of a sudden i looked over at him & i realized i love him

when i said i wanted a hug what i meant was that i needed one

and with [one] kiss i'd "die" from such *passion*

& the passion from your lips

when it comes to [love] im a fool

keep [falling] deeper and deeper for you when i should have got up along time ago.

i [hate] that your "holding" me *back*.

now you'll know what it feels like to [bite] your *tounge* whenever you see -me-.

 i [almost] had you but i guess that doesn't cut it.

if it makes you [happy] then why the hell are you so *sad*

& it's the way you *admire* her

the sweetest sound of all is that of your own name spoken by the only boy you care about........ <3

Don't fall for the guy with those gorgeous eyes until you have learned what lies behind them

Take chances . Be young . Go crazy .Drive fast . Kiss slow . No regrets.

[	mood	|	giggly	]
[	music	|	Goo Goo Dolls - Iris	]

Mhmm.. lol .. it's been awhile man .. yesterday was the fireworks.. it was aswm !! .. i went with Ashley Ian Glen Kaitlyn Kevin Judah Kate Justin Glen Paigee Conrad Sarah.B Amanda Britt.D Jackie Amber Delania Chris nd more people i dont really.. know  ... haha lol it was fun .. i went on the zipper..  hmm let me catch you up .. WATCH OUT!! new couple on campus.. Chrisite and Gary =) ♥ best of luck to you both .. muahhh :P in leaving inlike w week me and Paigee are going to Ohio YES!!! im so excited.. and to everyone who is reading this im sorry.. you prolly know what for.. like Blink says ♪The choice was mine i didn't think enough♪  and Ian .. i love you man .. in a friend way  lol.. haha always here for ya bud... OMG .. this Saturday is punkapalooza im so excited it's going to be me Sam Paigee Ashley and Christie ..girls night out** hahaha .. i need one.. i've been sooo stressed.. and anyone whos asking yes i still like Damien .. i love him .. man . just can't get over him. omg lmfao me and Chrisite were talking about if me and Damien hooked back up we would consider ourself cousin LMFAO were so dumb... i love you Chrisite ox'  to death and back .. ahhhh death lol mhmm.. i really don't know what else to write about.. well here's a olddddd song .. but i love it!!

[	mood	|	confused	]
[	music	|	Behind These Hazel Eyes- Kelly Clarkson	]

Well hmm here it is.. i guess .. anything new happen .. yes alot.. wow kk well first of all im single yay! wow that was so fake.. i wish i could say that and mean it.. but i can't hey what can you do right .. i'll get over it .. =( ahh. what am i saying .. ugh.. i hate him =( so much ... i hate to admit that i still love him .. i dont want to .. everyime i look into his eyes i jsut want to hold him.. but then i remember that he likes someone else.. wow in french .. today they sat besdie each other and were passing notes and stuff.. thats broke my heart again .. i broke down ... i had to leave the room.. i think it's because i kept everything inside and now it's all comming out.. ahh i hate this .. and im grounded so i;ve been bored.. i got suspended im back at school now though .. oooh and there this girl hwo i HATE.. wow i never ever thought i could hate someone so much  but i do .. ugh!!!!! i just want to move away fom it all .. and not say goodbye like start over yea know ugh if we only all got what we wanted.. ugh w.e i'll be ok .. watch .. it just.. takes... time?

Brittany<3

[	mood	|	confused	]
[	music	|	Denver Harbour- All i want	]

Hey .. wow what to say we broke up and i think it's for good.. i love him nad i kinda hate it .. becasue i can't be with him .. i just want him to want to be with me:(:( .. he says he does but yet he's not wiht me i don't get it .. love is soooooo stupid.. i jsut wanna die .. well not literaly .. but yeah lol.. well here's a song i love!!

AWAY FROM HERE LYRICS

"Suffocate"

...Ill steal your breathe away
Just like you stole my heart
Cold fingers around your neck
Ill suffocate my love out of you
And Ill steal away everything including memories
You dont deserve them
And Ill steal your life away
Your life is meaningless
Just like our memories

Ill steal your breathe away
Just like you stole my heart
Cold fingers around your neck
Ill suffocate my love out of you

And Im screaming at you
Through that tiny hole
That hole you ripped through my throat my words drip out
Like blood out of a wound
Words that will stain you

And I know you don't think
This is how I should end this song
Thats why I wrote it this way
Just to hear you say something I dont wanna hear
Cause anything that comes out of your mouth
Id rather shove it right back in
And watch you choke!....

[	mood	|	Happy..	]
[	music	|	Denver Harbor- All i want	]

Hey .. oww i haven't wrote in this for a while.. hmm i got my haircut today .. while everyone esle went to the Java Jubilee  Nick is siose to rap lol i wish i could have went .. lol but im grounded for attitude.. it's all good though.. lol well there's nothing elft to say .. so here's a song that i REALLY like ... i hope you like it too.

AWAY FROM HERE LYRICS

"Anatomy Of A Broken Heart"

...Perfectly failing, Sleep is overrated
And as words march across an empty screen
I scream, Im scared, that it is gone, tonight
Never say those words
We shared, Im scared, that It's gone, tonight
Leave me hanging, three words to save the day
Ill cling to those words
If you ever utter them again
Over and over maegan
Winters set in, and your chilled to the bones
Anti freeze to thaw out your heart
or July, these skies are, like my open eyes
With no disguise
Perfectly failing, to sleep is overrated (morning after the worlds collide)
And as words march across an empty screen
I scream

The morning after...the worlds collide
Will you be standing on the brink?
The brink of starvation of an empty heart
Cluttered with the remains of a useless boy
You wont wake up from this again (from this again)
Until the sun rears its head (you always said "depression falls with the snow")
And when you said that you loved me (this is what you wanted)
Did it ever occur that was a blatant lie (lies are color blind, there is no white)

So the pens run out, all that's left white markers
Broken lead, torn paper maybe this knife is sharper
Indtroduce a new way
A new way to suffer
Please welcome now
Hi, my names your worst nightmare
First stept to recover is to make sure its over
Words like rope around my neck
Ensure this end is somber (GOODBYE!)
Second step is distance well that's already covered
And the last step is best
Kill this pain with another drink for better times
Drink for suicide
Notes in the trash
Drink for what we have past and I know (I know)
(You always said you would not run away, but your gone today)
that's its gone (that its gone)
Say goodnight to old times (GOODBYE!)...

Britany<3

[	mood	|	PISSED OFF!	]
[	music	|	Fall to pieces- Velvet Revolver	]

Ugh im in the worst mood .. one being that entry .. i don't get why people can say hsit but they can't say it to my face!!!!!!!!!!! .. ugh and my b.f well he tells this girl everything that i tell him what a relationship eh..? yes it seems like they have more of a relationship then we do .. it seems im so pissed off you have NO idea.. and poor mr. desile.. <333333333 Logan<33333333333

wel w.e i cna't even write anymore.. bye!

[Logan<33]

[	mood	|	Happy!	]
[	music	|	Korn- Falling Away From Me	]

Hey .. well im better .. im me im happy i like my life right now omg the other night me and a whole bunch of friends went and saw the AmityVille Horror it was so scary.. the bus ride home was better than the movie .. haha my friend Talaya was like suffocating herself it was so funny.. i almost pee-ed my pants .. and before we went to the movie me adn a whole bunch of people were at at Krissy's watching the backstreet boys videos it was so fun .. :) .. see im happy and im glad i like being happy it's better than being all depressed and stuff.. hrmmm what else to say .. this weekend was fun .. here's a song that i like .. i hope you do too:)..

Korn Lyrics

Falling Away From Me Lyrics

Hey, I'm feeling tired.
My time, is gone today.
You flirt with suicide.
Sometimes, that's ok.
Do what others say.
I'm here, standing hollow.
Falling away from me.
Falling away from me.
Day, is here fading.
That's when, I would say.
I flirt with suicide.
Sometimes kill the pain.
I can always say.
'It's gonna be better tomorrow'.
Falling away from me.
Falling away from me.

Beating me down.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.
Screaming so sound.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.

(falling away from me).
It's spinning round and round.
(falling away from me).
It's lost and can't be found.
(falling away from me).
It's spinning round and round.
(falling away from me).
Slow it down.

Beating me down.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.
Screaming so sound.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.

Twisting me, they won't go away.
So I pray, go away.

Life's falling away from me.
It's falling away from me.
Life's falling away from me.
Fuck!

Beating me down.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.
Screaming so sound.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.

[	mood	|	gloomy	]
[	music	|	Acceptance-Differnet	]

Ugh.. here's my update.. not alot to say .. well there's nothing i can say latley .. i don't know whats wong with me.. or even me .. i odn't know who i am anymore .. now all  iwanna do is stay at home .. well that's not too much of a convienice since none of my friends ever ask me to do anything.. the only person i hang out with is Talaya .. everyone else has better things to do i guess.. better than me.. but then again .. everything is .. ugh.. i can't stand it anymore..i just want to die or something .. i hate school.. i haven't went..i either skip or put a face on that im sick .. wow .. im a really good actor .. i fake sick, happy, cheery alomst everything you see my face do .. or even me .. all my emotions are planned out.. just like my life.. it's not very.. hard to figure what i'll be doing tomarrow ..and even next week.. ugh.. well w.e .. comment if u want .. if not .. then by3..

Brittany..

[	mood	|	confused	]
[	music	|	Ohio is for lovers - Hawthorne Heights	]

Hey .. well latley i haven't been myself .. i don't even know who i've become .. putting on a image everyday.. an image im trying to protray.. ugh i need help .. if only i could be open with people .. i hate that i keep everything locked up all the time.. it's the worst thing you could possibly do .. ugh.. i hate it... i hate me .. im not depressed or suicidal or anything so don't think it.. i've just been down latley .. and i don't know why .. really i don't .. i wish i did so i could stop it .. all i want to do latley is sit in my room .. ALON3 .. all by myself .. ugh.. man i odn't know what to say.. .:( here's a song that i REALLY like !! :P

Ohio Is For Lovers Lyrics

                       Brittany..

[	mood	|	Bad Mood	]
[	music	|	Start Angry..End Mad- Moneen	]

Hey .. well there's like NOTHING to say . im kinda in a bad mood right now.. don't wanan talk about it .. so whoever readds this don't ask me about it... w.e here's a song that i like .. hope u do too..

LIFEHOUSE LYRICS

"You And Me"

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

Well.. nothing esle to say .. byee

Brittany

[	mood	|	Doing Fine!	]
[	music	|	Radiohead-Creep	]

Hey .. well guyz were back togehter LMAO .. im such a fool.. but it's love.. everyone is a fool when it comes to love.. well there nothing to realylsay .. here's a song that i really like .. it's kinda old but it's good.. lol

Radio head

Creep (Acoustic)

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
But I 'm a creep
I 'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She run, run, run run
Run

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

Isn't it a good song.. ?? well i think so well w.e ttyl Later Days..

<3 Brittany

[	mood	|	depressed	]
[	music	|	Promise- Matchbook Romance	]

Hey ... well uh.. i don't have a lot to say .. me and my b.f are done.. nad i think it's for good.. im really emotional.. but i guess it's because i really love him ?  {Maybe it's love, but it's like you said, "Love is like a role that we play."} I don't know what to do or think anymore.. i keep listen to this song it's called Promise- Matchbook Romance.. i think it's making me more sad..cuz it makes me sad.. here's the lyrics..

Matchbook Romance Lyrics

Promise

what would you say if i asked you not to go
to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
would you take my hand and never let me go
promise me you'll never let me go

and the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

i never thought i'd be the one to say
please don't, please don't leave me

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy... (easy, easy, easy...)

take my hand and never let me go,
take my hand and never let me go,
promise me...
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
make this last forever

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know, you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy


so fall asleep tonight, cuz' that brings me closer to you

this  is how i feel .. nad thats pretty bad.. but i'll be okaiee.. mayb im not now but i will be well thats whnat my friends keep telling me.. nad  i think the're right.. this might sound corny but thanks guyz... really it means alot to me.. well w.e i have to go ...

Brittany.. 

OmG were back together.. mayb we are meant to be .. i love him so much .. ugh..:):):):):)

Brit ..

[	mood	|	depressed	]
[	music	|	Adam's Song- Blink 182	]

Hey .. well i don't know what to say im not doing very well.. me and my b.f took a break .. i really hope we get back togehter .. i want it more than anything .. it's all my fault.. but i really don't think it's going to happen .. as much as i want it too.. well here's some poems comment do w.e u want .. :(:(

[	mood	|	Confised..	]
[	music	|	Saliva- Message Of Love	]

Okaiee well what i don't get is why people change around certain people... like do u get what im saying.. with one person your a crazy.n.wild person then with another your a total wreck .. i really think that you should just be who you are .. YOU all hte time .. but yet NOone is.. no one.. everyone changes personality with the differnt people they hang out with .. i know this from experience .. with my friends im the CRAZY hyper Brittany.. when im with my B.f im the cool and Calm Brit .. who doesn't show hyperness.. and when im all by myself i sit alone in hte dark play my guitar or read.. im suck a dork wheni m alone .. whe  im with my friends .. im the person everyone wants to be around.. when im with my b.f.. im no where close to me.. not even close .. im like a whole new person .. who is scared to be themselves.. i really don't inderstand why were all playing the "Roll's of people we don't even know and that are know were close to us" !

Why [not] Be you?

Brittany..

[	mood	|	Really Sad!	]
[	music	|	John Mayer- Not myself	]

Okaiee.. well people do things.. they take chances .. some get thier heart broken others are fine.. but the thing i wanna know is .. should u have any regrets.. me i think no .. because if u have one .. then u get more .. than soon you will be living your WHOLE life on regerts thigs you should have done things you shuldn't .. but .. how can u not regret something if it hurts so much ...

i don't have a poem today .. too much on my mind to write.. but whoever reads this think about it okaiee.. do whatever you think is right.. not about n e body else except for yourself

Brittany..

[	mood	|	Sad..	]
[	music	|	Imagine-a Perfect Circle	]

Today im going to write about murder's don't ask how this came up but .. it did.. why do people kill people? .. is it that there like isn't bad enough they got to make other people's life miserable?..or is it they've went through such a hard time in life they they gotta take it out on someone?.. or do they just want to ?... some people can be really rude and cruel.. like even with bulling .. everything but murder c'mon think .. how is your life so bad that u acually have to take someone elses life? I wrote a prayer for everyone who lost someone..

Why .. Why ... Why :(

[	mood	|	Hyper	]
[	music	|	Made my list of things to do - Fall Out Boy	]

Okay.. i could not think of what to write .. so me and my friend were trying and this is what we came up with lol Who inveted diapers .. like who could think of that .. will the next diaper be scented? or even like remote operated? the things people come up with these days.. when my mom was a kid a diaper was a sheet.. like a blanket we used to sleep .. here's a poem a wrote aobut diapers hehe